BOOTLEG BLOG
Visual novel log!
12/09/2024
Girlfriend Simulator
Realized I never properly finished this VN so I picked it up again and was pleasently surprised.
SPOILERS
I don't think I've seen "fake imaginary abusive girlfriend as a metaphor for suicidal depression" before and I vibe with it. Absolutely great VN especially for a Jam VN.I be having an abusive relationship with my depression too
11/30/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS
ok a lot has happened overall but I got to Riruru's introduction as a character.She has the same theme as Ayana.
is
Is Riruru Ayana?????
what the fuck is going on
We are now seeing where Takuji got him being "the savior" from now, thanks Riruru.
Kimika is a lot more mellow here than she was in the previous part, what the fuck happened to her, I mean she seems to care for Zakuro on some level so that could be it.
Also, bully girls are here and I am scared, I've seen them a couple times and people talking about how fucked up they are so I'm scared.
11/29/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS + 18+ + TW uh, fucked up sexual content??? idk what to tag but this definitely needs a trigger warning
HE FUCKED THE DESKHE STUCK HIS ACTUAL PENIS INTO THE DESK
HE FUCKED THE DESK OF A DEAD GIRL HE HAD THE HOTS FOR
IT'S SO INSANE AND FUCKED UP I LAUGH IN TERROR
WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING
You know shits fucked when the story feels like it's been returned to it's train tracks when the end of the world gets brought up.
11/13/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
WELCOME BACK TO HELL EVERYONE
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS + TW themes of mental illness
God the scene where Mamiya goes into complete denial of Zakuro's death that he immediately assumes that everyone who's whispering about her death must be plotting against him.I gotta fucking know what's up with Yuuki, he can't be a real person right? But then what is he? And by extention who or what are Kagami and Tsukasa?
11/12/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
WELCOME BACK TO HELL EVERYONE
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
After blankly watching Mamiya hallucinate/fantasize about Zakuro jacking off in public, I wonder if they're purposely written like a bland eroge scenes or not, cuz Yuki's lesbian fuckings genuinely unironically had more emotion in them.I feel so much fucking dread at Mamiya choosing to try to find out what happened to Zakuro and where she vanished off to.
AUUGH I FUCKING KNEW IT, very fucking interesting that Mamiya claims he witnessed a struggle though, not that he's the most reliable narrator, especially right now.
What a fucking haunting image of the 3 girls dead too, we saw it before but this is the first time it was in full view.
WE ARE DEFINITELY BACK ON SUBAHIBI'S WILD RIDE WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!!!!
Oh my fucking god it was a murder suicide, maybe, again, unreliable narrator, but we don't have anything saying otherwise so far. What the fuck is up with Zakuro.
OHHHHHHHHHH WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK OHHH THAT'S FUCKED OHHHH THAT'S FUCKED THAT'S THE GORIEST IT'S BEEN SO FAR I'M NOT EVEN GONNA SHOW IT WHATY THE FUUUUCK HER HANDS SHOULDN'T BE BENDING THAT WAYYYYY
10/05/2024
Tsukihime
I'm very curious to see what's up with Ciel, when along side the other girls' who have routes she feels incredibly ordinary. Too ordinary. Like sure she has her quirks here and there but she's not a fuckin vampire or something.
09/13/2024
Katawa Shoujo
I assume Hanako probably suffers from PTSD induced social anxiety because of the scarring, that or if she was born with them she suffers from trauma from extreme bullying, either way it's nice to see PTSD and mental illness actually considered a disability.
Also got introduced to Emi, she's super cute.
Been kinda starting to headcanon Misha to have either autism or ADHD, or both honestly, it just feels correct with the game's themes of disability.
Oh my god I already love Rin, all of these girls are very likable.
08/29/2024
Katawa Shoujo
I love how smug Shizune is, I'm so used to disabled characters getting infantilized this game feels so nice, how the fuck was this made by 4Chan.
I'm in love, I need to do Lilly's route.
08/22/2024
I Woke Up A Demon
As someone with really bad health anxiety to the point I've been convinced multiple times I was dying and someone who's been terrified in the past about my mental illness driving people away from me, this one hit home for me, very good short VN from the menhera VN jam. The art is super pretty too.
08/20/2024
Katawa Shoujo
I NEED to know what is up with the black hair girl with what looks like a burn scar on her face, she seems to be a big fan favorite, not really a shocker.
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING + TW RAPE AND DRUGS
Back on Subahibi's wild ride, today we have the rapey bullies talking about fucking girls while high with light rape implications, classic Subahibi.FUCK FUCK FUCK NOT AGAIN WHAT ARE YOU TSUKASA?? ARE YOU REAL??? ARE THE TWINS REAL???
THIS CHAPTER IS CALLED "It's my own invention" DID HE CREATE THEM???
WHAT THE FUCK ARE THEY
Is there some actual meta-narrative reason why Tsukasa and Kagami are blatant references to Lucky Star? Because those who interact with them are on the nerdier side??
But then how can two seperate people hallucinate the same exact people?? Kagami behaves exactly as she does when Takuji breaks psychologically in chapter 2, is there a universe fuck up happening and it's fucking with Takuji's psychosis???
"It's your fault! You're the one who caused it, and you're the one who erased it!" HUH?? KAGAMI??? KAGAMI WHAT DOES THAT MEAN????
"But... But that's so cruel... That's so cruel to ..."
"I'm just ... I'm nothing but , so..."
IS SHE REFERRING TO WHEN SHE WAS TORN APART LIMB BY LIMB???? WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING OOOOOON
Everytime I see Ayana's face when a day passes I feel like I'm being taunted.
08/19/2024
Katawa Shoujo
This VN has intrigued me ever since YouTuber Hazel name dropped it at some point in one of her videos and I looked it up to find out the title translated into "disability girls" and that it was birthed from 4chan and somehow seemed to actually be good? I mean so was maidcore but this felt different.
I just, I need to know.
Misha's design is incredibly iconic, I didn't realized I had already seen a character from this VN until I saw her.
I'm sper intrigued knowing that all of the routes were written by different people.
08/15/2024
soundless - A MODERN SALEM IN REMOTE AREA
Completed the main story while on my flight to see my family and ohh my god.
SOUNDLESS SPOILERS + TW FOR THEMES OF ABUSE
The reveal that Auma, or Angelica, actually was something that wasn't human is fascinating. I'm sure I'll figure out the exact WHAT of what she is when I get into the extra content. But holy shit.The themes of escaping an abusive partnership that's the result of abuse being the only thing you've ever known and how difficult it is as you're jumping into the unknown is STRONG.
The reveal that the reason why Nyn wanted to keep Auma away from Mercy is that at the end of the day that Nyn wanted Mercy to be safe as she knew her sister well enough to know that Auma was just going to exploit Mercy's weaknesses.
And Delilah... Poor Delilah... God I love you so much. I wish for a better world where you and Mercy could hold each other, you could have morning coffee together. But I'm glad you gave your life to push Mercy free from Auma's torment.
The strangling scene was probably my favorite, as it terrifyingly showcases the cycle of abuse. Mercy's mother abused her father, the Head Priest abused Yiea, and Auma abused Nyn. All in the name of "protecting Mercy". When it truth, they wanted to hoard her for themselves.
I hope Mercy lives at the very least a better life she's had.
08/10/2024
Tsukihime
TSUKIHIME SPOILERS
Interesting that the first route in order feels like I'm trying to interact with Akiha a lot, probably will make sense in time.Akiha can kinda be a little bit of a dick, I get that she means well and it's just a result of her strict upbringing, but still.
Very cute characterization that Kohaku is more comfortable calling Shiki "Shiki-san" than her sister is.
08/07/2024
Tsukihime
This VN feels so warm and comforting after Subahibi lol.
TSUKIHIME SPOILERS
Hisui has already won my heart honestly, I'm weak for the seemingly emotionless type. Excited when I can finally get around to her route, which won't be for awhile. The emotionless type always makes me curious to know more about them.The amount of distance between Shiki and Akiha despite being siblings because of how long it's been since they've last interacted low key kinda hits home for me.
Oh yeah vampires are a thing, I keep losing focus (not because of the VNs fault I just keep thinking about how I don't wanna go to work today) and missing things lol
I love her.
Aw Hisui's reaction from getting touched was cute, I like the moe that comes from a stoic character getting startled, but it does make me concerned.
After an encounter with a weird ass man the lines become visible with the glasses on, intriguing. Y'know this is an eroge, makes me super intrigued to know where that goes, I've heard some people say that the sex content feels a little forced so it would sell better (I think that was said about Tsukihime at least) so we'll see.
Towers Are Hospitals
Slowly going through some of the VNs submitted for the menhera visual novel jam, I was originally gonna participate in it but I've been so tired I couldn't
This short VN felt extremely comforting and hopeful. You'll be free from the tower one day.
08/06/2024
Tsukihime
It's nice to have a male protagonist that's genuinely likeable and is genuinely interesting, it's depressing how rare that is sometimes.
TSUKIHIME SPOILERS
The fact that Akiha has a route makes me slightly paranoid and worried I'm gonna get incest jumpscared, but also I'm so desensitized to stuff like that I'll probably just be able to tank it. Arcueid's route is first so I'm excited, but she hasn't been introduced just yet.Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING + TW SEXUAL ASSAULT AND RAPE
Oh shit is Senagawa the teacher that died previously? I think she died from suicide but I honestly can't remember, and I doubt I logged her name anywhere. Takuji is getting a bit power-trippy with being a website admin, 100% believable.TAKUJI SHOWING SYMPATHY POG!!!!!! There is hope for this guy. Idk how well helping Zakuro will go considering she saw the Piss Jar(TM) but we'll see.
HELLO?
But. But I thought you weren't real. Are you real? The box implies you aren't real. Tsukasa? Tsukasa are you real?
KAGAMI
The shock noises, they can't be real right? but then why have both Yuki and Takuji seen them, are they something inhuman like Zakuro and Ayana too? Are the a collective hallucination? Is that why Takuji also interacted with them? I.
Why are they following Takuji? Maybe they happened to be walking in his direction and his delusions are taking over him making him believe they're following and mocking him. But that still doesn't explain WHAT TSUKASA AND KAGAMI ARE.
OLD TIMES??? DOES IT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH TAKUJI?? DOES IT REALLY????? They must be referring to Yuki right? But Yuki hasn't shown up yet.
"I don't have a sister." WAIT A SECOND HOLD ON, YOU FACTUALLY DO, his psyche must be fractured because of his delusions and potentially his trauma as well.
THEY'RE POINTING AT THE RABBIT DOLL THAT KAGAMI TURNED INTO WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING
I can't help but find Takuji's inner conflict of desperately wanting female connection but also viewing all women as scum fascinating as a woman. Seeing what would have to happen to a man for him to have such an abhorent mind, and him slowly realizing his own hypocrecy, though I doubt he'll make a full arc, at least not now.
Oh god the bullies talking about Zakuro now being "broken" and potentially police getting involved with whatever they did to her if they get found out is scary as fuck.
I'm starting to think Yuuki isn't real, but I don't know WHAT he could be. Considering how Yuki was a guy in the original version of Subahibi maybe there's a connection there? I genuinely have no clue. Even Yuuki avoids Yuki huh?
Oh god I'm gonna have to psychologically prepare myself for this one.
There's something specific about having someone do something bad and then going "WTF WHY DID YOU DO THAT" type of gaslighting that makes me feel nausious, it's why I had such a hard time reading Soundless for a good bit.
Oh god this is fucking nausiating, sexual shaming, harassment, and basically sexual assault, taking him popping a boner for a second as their ticket free to force him to jack off in front of them, fucking disgusting. Every event makes me realize more and more why Takuji is so psychologically fucked.
OH THIS ISN'T JUST BARELY SEXUAL ASSAULT ANYMORE I'm muting audio or else I'm not gonna be able to take this. I knew rape was eventually gonna become prevelent in the story but it happening to Takuji isn't what I was expecting. Gang rape nonetheless.
Yeah I'm gonna, take a break from this VN for a little bit. That was psychologically exhausting and I know it just gets worse.
08/01/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
The guys Zakuro is running from are the most "we are asshole bullies" designed characters I've ever seen, makes me afraid that Zakuro is running from them.Takuji getting a hard one just by showing a cute girl his hide out (mostly against his will) is so fucking funny, average pathetic guy who never speaks to women. Since Takuji is the protag I won't be shocked if this is when the ero scenes start coming back.
I got extremely sidetracked from Takuji's horny thoughts because I started popping off at a new Zakuro CG, anyways time to find the guide again and pray. Ok thank god at least for now Takuji doesn't go horny mode, hopefully Zakuro is consenting (accidentally indirectly spoiling myself by looking in the guide since it says I'll need to reload the save.)
This one goes in the same folder as the "I'm filled with cum" line, I wonder if it'll be like that line and something batshit insane will happen right after this.
But the fact that it's using the box makes me think that this isn't actually happening, Takuji you better not do anything bad or else you're losing your cock and balls. Ok literally right when I wrote this down it got confirmed it wasn't going on lmao. So the electric noises are like a signifier that Takuji is spiralling into a delusion then huh?
OH MY GOD SHE DRAWS SHITTY SHOUJO MANGA IN HER NOTEBOOK, everytime I see Zakuro I just love her more and more.
The Greek tragety that is a lonely mentally ill girl who just wants a friend and a lonely mentally ill boy who's so touched starved a woman being vaguely nice to him gets him hard is gonna play out I can feel it and I am so so scared for both of these two.
Something I haven't mentioned but I adore how Subahibi 'animates' their sprites, taking advantage of the fact that most characters have a sprite from every angle and making it look like they turn around to grab something, it brings a lot of life to it.
Got flashbanged by Takuji dropping the f slur, I'm not even shocked Takuji gives strong 4channer energy I just wasn't expecting it at this very moment, also oh god he's introducing Zakuro to the internet.
ZAKURO FOUND THE PISS JAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mom found the piss drawer
HAHAHAHAHA SHE'S HEADING HOME AFTER SEEING THE PISS JAR, god poor guy. "Jeez, girls are always like that..." DUDE SHE SAW THE PISS JAR
07/28/2024
Tsukihime
Finally doing it! Tsukihime is one of THE visual novels of all time (origin of neco-arc if anyone needs a reference) so it's about time I start reading it, I'm reading the original and the translation by mirror moon.
The artstyle is so incredibly nostalgic of old school indie anime production, the scratchiness of the lineart and the incredibly bright colors. I adore it.
07/27/2024
soundless - A MODERN SALEM IN REMOTE AREA
I actually read a very tiny amount of this while on vacation, that being:
SPOILERS + TW GENERAL DARK AND HORROR THEMES
Clara has finally fucking snapped and is trying to kill everyone, honest to god thought that Mercy was just hallucinating with how abrupt it is, but I guess she never was the most stable seeming individual with how obsessed she is with Delilah.But speaking of that she's attacking Delilah as well after Delilah defended Mercy, I'm starting to think she's cracking because she realized her crush doesn't like her back. Delilah was probably her singular fragment of hope.
That's about how far I got though, since focusing on reading while hanging out with people was difficult.
07/21/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
GAME YOU CAN'T JUST END ON THE INTENSE ENDING OF "it's nothing, Mamiya-kun just jumped off" AND THEN ONCE WE TAKE THE PERSPECTIVE OF MAMIYA ONE OF THE FIRST LINES IS "that would be suicide"Anyways I see we now are starting one of the biggest things about Subahibi, multiple perspectives, taking Mamiya's perspective, I guess I should start calling him Takuji now honestly.
Seeing Takuji's hide-out seemingly before he goes crazy feels, weird. It's hard to seperate what happened here in the previous chapter and how simple and unassuming it seems here. Takuji being an otaku is not remotely shocking also, there were those weird carvings talking about a show on the wall.
Ok, this is weird as fuck, Tajuki claims that his father died which I thiiink we already know, but he also claims his mother is dead as well, despite us seeing her alive (though not really 'well') in the previous part. I'm still leaning towards the timeline assuption I had before. His mother was abusive as fuck too, which I'm sadly not shocked by.
Takuji refusing to view his mother as a bad person and viewing her violence as love already makes a lot of his behavior make a lot more sense.
OH SHIT IT'S THIS GUY, I've already seen him but I don't know anything about him. The fact his name (or his surname?) is also Yuuki makes me intrigued.
I see, this is Takuji's bully, he's fucking aggresive too.
I didn't think I'd be going "ohhhh that's why Takuji is so fucking unhinged" so fast, man almost lit him on fire and now he's forcing money out of him, the fuck is up with this guy?
ZAKURO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Takuji is already a little fucked in the head, assuming Zakuro is gonna be using him or luring him into a trap because of a previous girl who lead him on just to fuck with him. A already unwell guy just becoming worse because of people around him.
07/06/2024
Jisatsu no Tame no 101 no Houhou
Sadly like Manakashi I'm not gonna be able to fully experience this VN until the fan patch comes out (at least I think?) but massive thank you to the Denpa Archivist for at least making a patial subtitled translation on YouTube.
I feel like I just NEED to read this as someone who's slowly becoming a denpa head. Even if it's flawed as fuck I'm also an Elfen Lied fan I enjoy flawed media all the time.
SPOILERS + TW THEMES OF SUICIDE, DELUSIONS, HALLUCINATIONS, AND INCEST MENTIONING
What a fucking opening, starting with the iconic The World monologue and we read what appears to be a mass amount of students witnessing a classmate commit suicide atop the school roof, and immediately after we are introduced to our protagonist Torabishi Takuji and his distorted reality.We read about how after the start of the new year Takuji began to have auditory hallucinations of a noise akin to radio static, a noise he only referred to as "gray." At first the noise only appeared every few months but it would gradually increase, leading him to not be able to sleep.
Takuji gradually began to lose his connection with reality more and more as his hallucinations got worse. Takuji gets awoken by a hallucination of his step-sister Samomo in lingiere talking something about stairs, and as he goes to make any sexual move on this hallucination of his step-sister.
"Takuji covered his ears with both hands."
"He then closes his eyes."
"When he opened them again he was met with silence and darkness."
"There was no sign of Samomo."
"July 30, 2001."
"A heavy night."
"Damp Darkness."
"Sweat-soaked bedsheets."
"A warped ceiling."
"Takuji had returned to reality."
"Probably."
Really fucking strong first 5 minutes genuinely.
07/03/2024
CROSS†CHANNEL
Really trying to grit through how annoying Taichi's dialog can be to read this, I know it's like the singular thing people have a problem with this VN with, but I've heard he gets better. Misato is extremely pretty I adore her design.
Everything feels pretty comfy honestly so far, I know this thing is gonna rip my heart out though.
Oh my god Miki is super cute too, honestly every character has been super endearing so far.
06/30/2024
soundless - A MODERN SALEM IN REMOTE AREA
SPOILERS + TW GENERAL DARK AND HORROR THEMES + 18+ DISCUSSION
God the art is just so so pretty, but god I just, I don't know if I should trust Auma, I think her love for Mercy is genuine and that her intentions are good but I don't know if what she plans is the right thing.
I usually live blog but I played most of this in the living room on my phone and oh my god I have a lot to talk about.
The scene with Auma and Mercy just fucking around is super super cute, but also there's something fucking wrong with the water. Mass psychosis, seizures, and completely disconnected from reality. Makes me think of the town that suffered from mas hysteria that caused all the women if the town suffer from tics, what once was assumed to be something wrong with the water turned out to be mass hysteria both caused by the fucked up water and a girl actually getting diagnosed with tourette's.
Anyways uh, the fucked up water is also making everyone obey Nyn like zombies. It was implied that Delilah was in on dirtying the water and though even if she was it seems that this whole "make everyone zombies and sick them on Mercy and Auma" was not part of the plan.
The sweet dream/wet dream/nightmare sequence is so fucking well done. It starts as this perfect reality where the town becomes sane again and they infact start apologizing to Mercy, Auma eventually taking Mercy to another room alone, going to lift her skirt almost implying they should have sex, but the moment she lifts her skirt she becomes this terrifying being and speaks distorted. It feels like a real nightmare of someone who's deeply traumatized and repressed.
I think Delilah loves Mercy but Nyn loves Delilah and that might be influencing her choices. Unfortanently I also think Auma loves Mercy so uh, everyone is fucked. Praying for these mentally ill repressed lesbians. Is saying "praying" insensitive here?
I'm really excited to learn about the truth around Nyn and Auma, first of all, "Nyn" and "Auma" are clearly not their real names, and obviously they aren't actually holy beings. They both seem to want to escape this town as soon as possible, but through extremely different means.
06/29/2024
Manakashi No Yuri Wa Akaku Somaru
Joined the discord server for the fan English patch for this VN and was kinda sad to see that development seems to have paused and hasn't progressed since March of last year. I guess I'm stuck to the true ending translation online for now. I'd like to experience the other endings in the future, I really need to continue learning Japanese.
SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
I've been reading this extremely slowly since Subahibi has been taking up the entirety of my brain space so I'm only just now getting to the part where it's revealed that Kanzaki is also a lesbian, so it's time for shit to get toxic. Kanzaki is honestly already showing some red flags, how quickly she got vindictive over Honjou getting a little distance.The teacher coming in and going "you two seem like great friends :)" obliviously is super funny.
So so funny that this subtitled playthrough translates "direct question" as "straight question" when Kanzaki literally just asked Honjou if she masterbates.
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING + TW VIOLENCE AND SUICIDE
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN ZAKURO'S PHONE IS IN YUKI'S CLOSET WITH ZERO MEMORY OF HER HAVING IT???GHOST??? ZAKURO IS THAT YOU??? THAT AUDIO IS FREAKY AS FUCK, AND IT JUST CONTINUES TO THE NEXT DAY.
Ok Ayana is definitely not a student, her chilling on the roof at presumably like 12am kinda proves that, I wonder if she's the secret 2nd person that was on the roof when the teacher died.
First time we're seeing Ayana literally anywhere other than the roof I think.
Tsukasa and Kagami's books are still in their desks I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared.
THEY AREN'T HOME I'M SCARED I'M SCARED I'M SCARED DON'T HURT THE LESBIAN TWINS!!
Oh my god Ayana smiling for a split second and then vanishing scared the shit out of me, she's so strange I love her.
I CAN HEAR TSUKASA CRYING I'M SCARED I'M SCARED I'M SCARED MAMIYA IF YOU DID LITERALLY ANYTHING TO THEM I'M TURNING YOU INSIDE OUT
I'M TURNING MAMIYA INSIDE OUT YOU PIECE OF SHIT WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO KAGAMI
FUUUUUUCK DON'T DO THIS TO ME DON'T REMIND ME OF HOW MUCH I LOVE YUKI AND KAGAMI TOGETHER AND HOW I WANT THEM TO LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER RIGHT AFTER TELLING ME THAT KAGAMI HAD HER LIMBS CHOPPED OFF AND ALL HER CLOTHES REMOVED
I don't know if I'm more or less thankful that Kagami is alive, mangled and tortured but still alive. A part of me wishes she died so she didn't have to suffer, but I doubt Tsukasa would be able to live on if that happened.
HUH? HUH? HUH? HUH? HUH?????
whatthefuckwhatthefuckwhatthefuckwhatthefuckwhatthefuck
AND IT'S THE 19TH, ONE DAY BEFORE THE WORLD ENDS AND PRESUMABLY THE END OF THIS PART, I AM SO SCARED
I am going to push Mamiya off the roof
Wait, Zakuro constantly throwing the doll off the roof in the first chapter, is there something fucked up in this universe that causes those who die to become dolls? Like to symbolize them being entirely erased from this reality? And the only reason Yuki remembers is because she's the world itself? No no that doesn't work because everyone rememebrs the other victims, actually no, we still saw their mangled corpses of them trying to live. I don't know I don't know.
What if Kagami has been the doll the entire time? I don't know I don't know, I'm just thinking while Yuki exposes Mamiya.
THEREEEE IT IS, MY STRAY CONNECTION TO THIS VISUAL NOVEL BEFORE I EVEN KNEW WHAT IT WAS, THIS FUCKING IMAGE THAT WAS ALWAYS IN EVERY EDGY NIGHTCORE REMIX, holy shit
GIRL REALLY DID JUST GO "oh it's nothing, Mamiya just killed himself :)"
And that's the 2nd part done, holy fuck, what the fuck, oh my god
soundless - A MODERN SALEM IN REMOTE AREA
SPOILERS + TW THEMES OF RELIGIOUS TRAUMA AND ABUSE
I can't help but find Mercy and Auma's interactions very cute, even if they kinda concern me, this VN was literally advertised as a toxic yuri.I desperately need to know what's going on with Nyn and Delilah, I figured they'd have some sort of connection since they seem super similar but god I gotta know.
Auma planning to openly talk about her 'visions' is making me hella anxious, though knowing the hypocrisy of this VN's church I also wouldn't be shocked if they believe her even if she insists Mercy is also seeing them and is right.
This screenshot is kinda crusty because it's from my phone but this CG is hauntingly beautiful, I can't help but wonder if Delilah is planning to go against the church.
Hearing someone side with Mercy on her traumas is very refreshing but I can't help but not trust Auma, something just feels, wrong.
06/24/2024
CROSS†CHANNEL
Look, look I know the steam translation is ass, but it could definitely be worse. And I long to read this VN almost as much as I do with Suisenka, and at least this one is translated. I was actually reading it before but my save deleted itself so I lost motivation to keep reading.
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
I think Ayana is aware that Yuki is the world itself despite the fact that she doesn't remember it. Ayana is clearly linked almost directly to Yuki, her saying she only knows what Yuki knows and all, like they're mentally linked. Maybe she's like that with everyone she interacts with?The only other character she's interacted with is Zakuro, and that was off screen, god this girl is so strange I love her.
>psychicly shows you an image of the 3 girls who killed themselves
>doesn't elaborate
>vanishes into thin air
This timeline's Zakuro feels a bit different, though she was strange she seems a lot more extreme here. I wonder what happened.
NEW CHARACTER!! Hasaki, Mamiya's little sister. She seeems a lot more sane than her brother, considering tbe brief glance we get of their mother I can assume mental illness runs in their family. Their mother was also part of the White Lotus Association formally, and she decided to remake the religion entirely herself for one reason or another. Most likely where her son is getting his beliefs from.
Huh, it says that Hasaki's mother became in her current state because of both the Father and Hasaki's twin brother dying back to back, I do still think she definitely influenced her son though.
According to Hasaki, the web bot is a complete bullshit. The way it functions honestly reminds me of several false prediction YouTube channels that would do stuff like make a shit ton of videos, upload them unlisted, and then make them public if they become real, making them look like real predictions.
What a sweet girl, if Mamiya does anything to her I'm castrating him.
KIMIKA INTRODUCTION, I would take a screenshot but I don't wanna use too much website storage. She seems to be part of Mamiya's weird cult, only one I've seen refer to him as "The Savior" as he refers to himself as.
It feels so weird hear someone spout his rhetoric while speaking so normally- OH THE BITCH HAS A KNIFE
The teacher is beaten and bloodied but still alive pleading for help, jesus fuck this Kimika girl is fucking terrifying. She's even scarier since she doesn't LOOK insane like most anime-styled characters like her do, she looks so normal even when attempting murder. It's scary.
The fact that attention is called to the fact that the lights in Tsukasa and Kagami's house are out makes me so fucking scared, there's no way that's a throw away line, do not touch the lesbian twins DO NOT!
06/23/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
MAMIYA'S NAME IS ON ZAKURO'S DESK, I THINK I AM ONTO SOMETHING!! Yuki also notes that she constantly gets a crazy headache when he's around. What the fuck is up with him.
Ayana's dialog is full of surprises.
Oh fuck, ohhhh fuck, oh god, why does he look like that???? Why is he reaidng Yuki's mind???? I'm scared.
WHAT THE FUCK DOES HE MEAN TWO-DIMESNIONAL WORLD WHAT WHAT WHAT?? MAMIYA CAN YOU SEE ME???
I'm not gonna be able to put down this VN now, minus the H-scenes since I'd wanna be home alone so my boyfriend doesn't have to deal with them.
The fact that Mamiya's dialog is in the giant square style text box that's typically only used in this VN for either internal dialog or mass groups I slightly suspect that Mamiya is either speaking to Yuki telepathically or he's in some way not physically present. He's clearly connected to something supernatural.
Anyways reference to Last Thursdayism jumpscare, which feels particularly unsettling in the context of a visual novel.
I've always enjoyed stories with the premise of "what if the conspiracy theorist was right?" somewhere in it, and considering this is a denpa VN it makes sense. I am, very worried for Kagami though, with how much she's fighting against him.
I'm starting to think Ayana isn't a student at all, maybe some being watching over Yuki specifically? Not an angel since she feels too, I guess, detached emotionally to be one, but something not human.
HAPPY SAIN† SHEOL Demo
Haha hey look another denpa VN, another one with religious theming too, I think that's the 3rd one now.
Sadly the full VN isn't released in English yet but I enjoy what I see so far, Maya is very Ravencore. The art's very cute too.
06/22/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
Theory: the weird timid boy, the one who Yuki meets at the very beginning of the story and she happens to stumble across while she's in a state of vertigo has a direct tie to Zakuro's suicide.The fact that the shadow in the image with Zakuro and the other girls' corpses has short hair feels like it points to Ayana as a red herring, Ayana's given me strange vibes but the timid boy who I don't remember the name of and will not look up to avoid spoilers gives me bad vibes, I don't trust him.
06/21/2024
Higurashi When They Cry - Ch.1 Onikakushi
SPOILERS?
I adore the original art style and how squishy and oldschool it feels but got Tomitake just looks off to me. Honestly most of the guys that aren't Keiichi look mildly off.
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS + 18+ WARNING
I desperately want to know what the fuck is up wth Ayana. Other than her being another strange and offputting girl for me to obsess over, she has direct connections with Zakuro who herself has a lot of mistery around.We know Zakuro has killed herself in both this timeline and the previous timeline, but in the previous timeline she stayed as this weird ghost-like being that no one even realized was dead. Zakuro is heavily bullied and is also implied to not get along with Ayana. Maybe Ayana is linked to it somehow?
I doubt Ayana is a, I guess, 'moral' character. Since my first ever contact with this series is through a very ominous image of her. Her theme also has fucking morse code in it I NEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT HER!!!
Anyways.
06/19/2024
Manakashi No Yuri Wa Akaku Somaru
I guess one pro(?) about watching a fan translation on YouTube is that a lot of the more gorey content is censored, so at least my mental health is prooobably not gonna decline from engaging with it.
SPOILERS
I'm still super early in, Honjou only just being found out by Kanzaki as being a lesbian, it's very sad to see how restless and anxious it makes Honjou for anyone to know she's a lesbian, especially already knowing what things are to come for her.Honjou's parents are also refreshingly accepting of her, I'm so used to parents in LGBT+ media being really shitty, especially from those from Japan, it's sweet so see a family that accepts their daughter as a lesbian.
06/18/2024
Manakashi No Yuri Wa Akaku Somaru
Does it count as playing if I'm watching a subtitled translation on YouTube? I'll count it, I usually put my visual novels on autoplay anyways, I really really wanna read this toxic yuri kinda questionable VN, even if I already know what happens because I've watched Amelie Doree's video covering it.
I'm watching the translation done by Games and Joy, it's a little clunky here and there but I think I have enough of a grasp of Japanese gramatical structures to understand it.
Two lesbians who happen to have the same name, one timid and one outgoing, how cute! What could possibly go wrong. :)
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SPOILERS + TW THEMES OF RELIGIOUS TRAUMA AND ABUSE
There they aaaare, Nyn and Auma, they already seem super interesting. Nyn being cold and seems to only really care about her sister and whatever teachings she's being given, and Auma, a very delicate and sweet girl who is the singular person who shows Mercy any sort of empathy. Waking her up after Mercy has a particularly nasty hallucination episode leading her to get locked in a closet.
06/17/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS + 18+ DISCUSSION(sexual content)
Ah classic anime lesbians fawning over the girl they love so deeply even long after they've forgotten who they are because they simply can't forget her no matter what.
Anyways I popped off so hard, even if Zakuro was a bit of a weirdo for walking up to a Yuki that doesn't remember her and basically going "I want to fuck you :)"
Average dialog of a VN that has already given me 1 existential crisis.
Anyways tonal whiplash from what I last wrote, Zakuro is dead. I mean I guess she was already dead in chapter 1, it was just sort of her restless spirit sticking around. But here she's long dead before anything could happen. This specifies that Zakuro specifically committed suicide, which I figured. Her taking her life along side the other 2 girls we saw.
Still hurts a lot though. She's definitely my favorite so far, but I doubt she's gone for good considering the nature of this story.
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SPOILERS + TW THEMES OF RELIGIOUS TRAUMA AND ABUSE
Finally getting myself to read this again, Mercy getting violently stabbed over and over by her bullies and then procceding to get blamed for it struck such a personal uncomfortable cord with me I physically couldn't read it, but now I'm in a little better of a mental state, and I guess the abusive priest is an easiler pill for me to swallow. The brain is weird.Anyways Yiea is dead (YIPPIE!!!!!) but that also means Mercy is gonna be treated even more like shit, but also also this means the main catalyst has begun, I wonder if we're gonna get introduced to the girl on all of the promotional art now.
Higurashi When They Cry - Ch.1 Onikakushi
I enjoy reading these ones on auto while slipping in and out of paying attention since for the most part I know what's happening already, I'll pay more attention to the more crazy bits to see what's different but I'm definitely gonna try to give my full attention when I get into the later chapters.
06/15/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
Installed the patch and am now in the 2nd chapter
18+ DISCUSSION(sexual content)
This 18+ patch makes me really wanna read steam's regulations on sexual content, there's games like Huniepop on the platform but Wonderful Everyday needs a patch for the rest of the content, and it's original content is already 18+, I don't get it. Ig lesbian sex isn't sexual enough06/14/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
This VN is gonna give me an existential crisis
I also got to the part that NSO references.
06/13/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
SPOILERS + 18+ DISCUSSION(sexual content)
Since this is the first VN I've read with uncensored sex content I was kinda mentally preparing myself for it to be abrupt but it actually felt kinda natural? Anyways Yuki Kagami lesbian sex.Thus naturally I got the Kagami ending, first ending got, I am afraid of the rest.
Kagami and Yuki are really fuckin cute together tho, there's something refreshing seeing a gay spin on the tsundere trope.
Quickly grabbed the Tsukasa ending too, laughed at Kagami smacking Yuki for fucking her sister.
With both of the token normal routes done I'm now getting what I've been mentally preparing myself for, the VN to get fucking weird.
During their cute little date Zakuro now finds a new attraction and now the two girls are in a liminal grocery store, it's time everyone, it's time for my brain to melt.
The Murder Of Sonic The Hedgehog
For the sake of my mental health.
06/11/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
SPOILERS + TW TALK OF SUICIDE + 18+ DISCUSSION(sexual content)
Zakuro was fr trying to lotion up Yuki goddamn and I thought Kagami was down bad.But speaking of Zakuro she's so sweet I wish for her and Yuki to just have a nice lesbian make-out session as a treat, really trying to say they're going on a date 'as a joke' god they need to kiss already. I'm also extremely concerned for Zakuro's safety.
Even if she insists it isn't what she meant, the allusion that she might be planning to kill herself reminds me way too much of real behaviors of people who plan to take their life I'm super super worried for her.
She also has a history with Ayana of some sort, clearly negative. I'm starting to doubt that the two of them are even human, but in what way I have no clue.
(playing later in the day at this point)
I am pretty confident in my heterosexuality for the most part, but holy shit Zakuro is just so fucking pretty I feel awestruck whenever I see her. Which makes me very scared. I'm getting deeply emotionally attached, oh god oh fuck.
There's this, implication Zakuro has met Yuki before, I think some form of Yuki may be the special person she keeps referring to. Their chemistry is super sweet too.
I'm gonna savor this until it all goes wrong.
06/09/2024
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SPOILERS + TW THEMES OF RELIGIOUS TRAUMA AND ABUSE
I'm starting to get super invested, Delilah once being this bright eyed child who looked up to Mercy and ending up tired and overworked along with the reveal that her mother was murdered on a cross for being a 'heretic'. Faust being heavily abused by his parents, which I suspected since a teenage boy this sadistic doesn't just become like that for no reason, and I paused on the start of going into Clara's backstory which seems to be leading into her getting bullied for having a speech disorder, I suspect she bullys Mercy as a way to protect herself, but we'll see.Mercy also had what seemed to be a psychosis episode which was very scary and well done.
Higurashi When They Cry - Ch.1 Onikakushi
Been slowly making my way through the Higurashi VNs, I loved the anime so it only feels natural, plus I've heard that both the VNs are generally considered better and also that they focus a lot more on the psychological horror and mystery aspects rather than the gore aspects which I can 100% get behind, as much as I'm a fan (fan's not the right word, but you get what I mean) of the fucked up violence in Higurashi
Funnily enough when I looked over my shoulder at my boyfriend's monitor, a friend of his was playing Higurashi Kai, the 5th chapter, what're the odds lmao.
06/08/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
SPOILERS + 18+ DISCUSSION(sexual content)
I was gonna start of the main canon route originally but I think I'm gonna go down the Kagami route(at least to the best of my abilities while playing blind)Anyways shout out to Kagami for being so in the closet but the moment she gets to kiss Yuki she goes in sloppy style. Kagami's also totally the "all guys are gross" to "oh wait I'm just a lesbian" pipeline.
It's her, the girl of the hour, the girl who is constantly in edgy nightcore videos. I may not trust her from the singular CG I've seen of her but I just have a gut feeling she's gonna be my favorite by the end of this.
Ame's Happy Happy Dating Game
Any reason to see content of my beloved neurotic mess Ame is great, short and sweet, love love love it.
Momo's Diary
THIS VN CONTAINS INTENSE THEMES OF MENTAL ILLNESS, SELF HARM, DRUGS, SUICIDE, AND MORE
Another day another VN I downloaded by looking at the denpa tag on VNDB, and man it was a short and extremely uncomfortable(positive) ride, really really good. Cheers to everyone losing their mind.
06/07/2024
Wonderful Everyday Down The Rabbit Hole
MINOR SPOILERS + 18+ DISCUSSION(sexual content)
Finally got titty jumpscared (is it a jumpscare if I was expecting it?)All of the girls stripped down naked during a King's Game, so much lesbian tension in this VN, I can't wait to be fucking traumatized since this is like, THE denpa VN outside of Shizuku and Sayonara o Oshiete which I really wanna read.
I love Zakuro though, she's so fucking strange I love her.
06/01/2024
Just Kiss Her Already!
Oops forgot to log this! Started this super cute VN about a sapphic girl and her innability to realize the cute waitress girl is hitting on her. Love it so far, so cute.
05/30/2024
Hot Cocoa Magic!
Super short but super super cute story about a socially anxious witch making a friend, mostly read it because I recognized the artist. Very cute.
05/29/2024
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Found out an Android port was made for this VN, so I now know what I'm gonna do on work breaks from now on, read fucked up denpa toxic yuri.
SPOILERS + TW THEMES OF EXTREME BULLYING, ABUSE, AND SANISM
Even not too far in this VN does NOT pull it's punches, from what I can tell so far our protagonist Mercy suffers from some sort of psychosis or schizophrenic spectrum disorder, going from being praised as this holy figure for her visions to being viewed as cursed and damned.One of the last scenes I read was Mercy almost being drowned to death because one of the guys involved in one of her 'cleansing' rituals is extremely sadistic. She's literally in love with the singular girls that treats her like a human, and even then she's not perfect.
Did you know?
There's a growing amount of evidence that Depression shrinks parts of the brain, in particular, a lot of areas lose GMV (gray matter volume) Always remember that mental illness affects the brain physically as well.